I have been MIA the last part of this week. I spent Wednesday evening through Thursday afternoon in the hospital. It was in no way how I expected to spend that time. It's a long story but was having shortness of breath and heart palpitations and they continued for a while without stopping. I have never experienced anything like that before and it was pretty scary. My husband took me to the ER and they did EKG's and put me on oxygen and gave me fluids. My heart continued to beat erratically for a few hours. They told me that my heart seemed healthy and it was an arrhythmia and that if there was a "safe" arrhythmia that is what I had. They did admit me and I continued to have the arrhythmias throughout the night but eventually they seemed to subside for the most part. In the end they assured me that my heart is healthy. There are a number of things that could have caused it and I probably had several of them going on at once. It was an ordeal and I am thankful that everything came out okay. I am trying to recover from very little sleep in the hospital but other than that I feel fine.
I had a million thoughts go through my head while I was experiencing all of this. One of which was about how I have a draft I am working on writing about moms taking care of themselves so that they can take care of their families. I think I had to live it before I could share it. I have always believed that I need to take care of myself before I can fully give of myself but this week I got to experience a lot of the reasons why it is so important. Moms give so much of themselves and that is just part of the job most of the time. We have to make sure we are balancing that with our own needs though. When something happens to us everyone else suffers. So it is best to do the preventative things that keep us healthy physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually, even if that means that something for someone else has to wait. I am slowing down now for sure. My list of priorities has to include my needs too. I would love to hear how you take care of yourself in the midst of serving your family.